(c) 2010 Steven Grames
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August 2010

Temptation

It’s an all night party falling from the sky
You can run, you can hide
But they’ll get you inside

Waiting for that chance as the shadows start to fall
Waiting, wanting
To have it all

I’ll take a ride
With an angel by my side

A broken back over hopes and dreams
My soul churns out a painful scream
Chocolate kiss with the wind on your breath
It’s a kiss in disguise
It’s the kiss of death

I’ll take a ride
With an angel by my side



The Flight from Sadness

The flight from sadness
Returns to madness
In the purple afterglow of life

Reluctance takes hold
Deceives the untold
And breathes a welcome breath
Upon the sea of ignorance

Despite the refuse of a day gone awry
My mind begins to grow and fly
Into twilight
With love in its wings

To kiss, caress and bless
The open, unending sky
A hazy shadow looms in thought
On a lazy, unending pillow of deceit

Desperately I cling to the effervescent afterglow
Longing to be free
To taste the un-relinquished flavor of sweet abandon


In my Fire

When I close my eyes
I see you in vision
Deception is mine
Over and over

When I open my eyes
And no one is watching
I think of the way
You burn in my fire


Oxygen

You are my oxygen
I tap my heartbeat on your shoulder
Immobility takes my life again
Apparatus breathing faster

Breathe! Breathe for me!

Respirational therapy
Feel the needle stick inside of me
Subcutaneous energy
Watch my life drip
Slowly, painlessly

Sting! Sting for me!


New Birth

Depression rears its ugly head
Am I alive or am I dead?
The pain is real, this ache of life
It cuts into me like a knife

When I am down and can’t get up
When every word is so corrupt
When all my friends have gone away
It’s in this hell that I must stay

And so I rest my weary head
By sunrise, maybe I’ll be dead
And those who could not bear my soul
Can occupy this darkest hole

Goodbye, my friends: The illness wins
I’m marked for life and so I sin
I take the knife into my grip
I let it slice; I let it slip

The crimson life out of me drains
As I grow sleepy, far from pain
The room is quiet, full of peace
At last, I find a true release

Weep not for me, don’t shed a tear
My pain has stopped and so has fear
No longer must you hear me cry
No longer must you say goodbye

The path I take is mine alone
I shall not wait for things unknown
I sleep the sleep of one well worn
Better had I not been born




Deliverance

Never am I sleeping
Never have I time
Never resolution
Never are you mine

Never make you happy
Never get your way
Never comes tomorrow
Never starts today

Pills to stay awake
Pills to make me sleep
Pills to stop the burning
Pills that make me weep

Love made me a victim
Love made me a slave
Love taught me addiction
Love stole all I gave

Silence is the secret
Silence from your lips
Silence in its bitterness
Silence slowly rips

Poison in my image
Poison in my pen
Poison in my countenance
Poison hearts of men

Intoxicate reality
Intoxicate my dreams
Intoxicate the way I think
Intoxicated screams

Deliver me from evil
Deliver me from sin
Deliver me from innocence
Deliverance begins


Purple Diamonds


Purple diamonds dance in the stark, blue sky
They sail ever heavenward, searching vigilantly for a place of rest

Streaming ribbons dangle and sway beneath the purple halos that hold them captive
The sky is open like the vast, blue sea, swallowing purple jewels as they stagger:
Helplessly consumed by the great beyond

Below, the snowy earth mourns
The silent grave waits
Hearts are broken and weep

I watch as diamonds fade from view
Once in my hand, they now follow your soul

My love, I release you into the sky


Trying to Breathe

Another night without you
Alone, I sit and think
My tears have all but emptied
They now flow out in ink

I wonder, are you happy
Wherever, without me?
I tremble in your absence
Adrift upon life’s sea

The sky is dull and empty
I long for your return
My life, once firm and structured,
I helpless watch it burn

“Farewell, my love!” I whisper
I hope you’re happy now
You told be to keep breathing
I can’t remember how


The Crimson

I fell so hard and fast
Thinking this could last
Just when I thought I could be yours
My heart, you took and smashed

The knife was in your grip
You said you must have slipped
When in it plunged and twisted hard
As words escaped your lips

So now I sit and bleed
Because your cruel deed
Deprived me of the only love
In which I could believe

I hear you call my name
I’ll never be the same
You don’t look back to see me there
Heartbroken and deranged

So walk away and laugh
Go take another path
The crimson wound you left me with
Has conquered me at last


Stone and Bronze

Stone and bronze and now you’re gone
The flowers start to fade
Elongate box of cherry wood
The wedding dress you made

Your purple kiss now locked away
In stone, in wood, in earth
Your soul, a soft reminder
That death is but new birth

The lily veil across your face
Asleep in satin frill
Your epitaph, a Savior’s words
He whispers, “Peace, be still”


Untitled

In the infinite wisdom of the beat of your heart
My head rests upon you, no longer apart

When morning arouses the life in my eyes
I find you there waiting, in sorrowed disguise

Your kiss, like a feather, caresses my lips
Your eyes and your perfume, and your fingertips

They tell me the story of your broken love
The sadness that lingers like sound from a dove

I hold you so gently as if you will break
And whisper my longing for love we could make

You tell me you love me in eloquent tones
Like water that rushes o'er riverbed stones

Then night comes with silence in purple and blue
Now lost in a moment of wet lily dew